So this here is Garrett. Now i know i shouldnt be posting this but i need to let it all out..maybe someone who cares will read it..maybe no one will read it. but as long as i get it out i will be ok.
He broke my heart. i did everything i possibly could for him to prove that we were in love, that we were perfect for eachother, that we were gonna last forever. but see thats just the problem it was I who did it all, his efforts were few if any. It was like he was a puppet master and i was his puppet. i did everything he wanted at his every beck and call. but for some reason i thought that was love..? its hard letting go of him..but sometimes you have to do whats right. i cant say that i will never take him back.. i cant say that im ever gonna move on..because at this moment i dont feel like i will. Some days are easier than others, sometimes i think to myself why am i sad over someone who doesnt even care that im hurting? why should i be crying over someone who has done this many times to me and doesnt seem to care? why am i put in this position of saddness because he needs to "focus on him"? i guess im just stuck in a rough spot because i want him to be with me so bad and there isnt a damn thing i can do about it. You know one side of me is like fuck him he did me dirty...and the other side of me wants to say i love him he was so good to me. I dont know..this is possible one of the hardest things i have ever had to go thru..and it sucks that its HIM i usually go to when things get rough in my life..and now HE cant even be there...
xoxo even though you no longer want my love garr i will always be there for you if and when you ever need it..
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