face it, he's just not that into you..

a man who wants to make a relationship work, will move moutains to keep the women he loves. if he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he is showing up at your doorstep in person..if he's not doing any of that he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he's just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what its like to live without you.

He's sniffing for something better and when he doesnt find it he gets lonely and comes back "home". its not that he's so into you. its that he's so not into being alone. dont give him the chance to breakup with you for the fourth time. reset your breakup maximum to one, and move on.

you deserve someone who will be nice to you all the time.

deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who not long ago looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities and told you that he was no longer in need of your company.

cut him off. let him miss you.

THERE'S A GUY OUT THERE WHO'S GOING TO BE REALLY HAPPY THAT YOU DIDNT GET BACK TOGETHER WITH YOUR CRAPPY EX-BOYFRIEND.

once again...twsift took the words out of my mouth

Tswift always knows how to say what im feeling.

This is my song right now.

gco.

So the past few days have been HELL. I have good moments and bad moments, somethings make me think of you and i just cry and other times i hate you and im so angry at what you have done to me, and that you can act like nothing has changed for you. It hurts me inside a lot the idea of you just moving on so easy like i never effected you or anything. While im sitting here crying every two seconds missing the fuck out of you, youre able to go on with your day normally. Its just not fair at all. It sucks when you think you found the one, but then they just change up and decide they dont wana care for you anymore. i cant even picture in my head another man holding me or kissing me or taking me out. All i can see is you and me together, thats how its suppose to be. thats whats right.

Im sure all my friends find it so annoying that all i can do is sit and cry about you. But i honsetly cant help it. Im trying to move on, but moving on just doesnt feel right i want to hold on to us still. Something is telling me that its just not right to move on.



I hope one day when you get off of work and you go lay down in bed you think of me and miss me. I hope that one day you wish i was laying next to you comforting you. I hope when you have struggles in life that you think back and wish i was there to motovate you and believe in you. I hope when youre lonely you regret everything youve done to me.



You have dragged my heart through the mudd and back out again. Its just a circle, but its ok because i love you, i love us, and that wont ever change.

Some quotes that are helping me get through this..

"some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. If youre wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesnt love you anymore"
-lady gaga

"as you become more clear about who you really are, youll be better able to decide what is best for you-the first time around."

" if a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesnt nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition to save from heartache. stop trying to change yourself for a relationship thats not ment to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.if a relationship ends because the man wasnt treating you as you deserve, then heck no you cant "be friends"a friend wouldnt mistreat a friend. dont settle.if you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Dont stay because you think it will get better.Youll be mad at yourself a year later when things are not better.the only person you can control in a relationship is you.aviod men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of women. He didnt marry them when they got pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?always have your own set of friends from his.If something bothers you speak up.never let a man know everything. he will use it against you later. You cannot change a mans behavior. change comes from within.Dont ever make him feel he is more important than you are.. even if he has more education or in a better job. do not make him a quasi-god. he is a man nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are not dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street. You need time to heal between relationships..there is nothing cute about baggage. Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to complete you...a relationship consists of two whole individuals..look for someone complimentary..not supplementarry. Dating is fun..even if he doesnt turn out to be Mr. right. Make him miss you sometimes..when a man always knows where you are and you're always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Never move into his mithers house. Never co-sign for a man. Dont fully commit to a man who doesnt give you everything you need.Keep him in your radar but get to know others"

broken hearted girl.

So this here is Garrett. Now i know i shouldnt be posting this but i need to let it all out..maybe someone who cares will read it..maybe no one will read it. but as long as i get it out i will be ok.

He broke my heart. i did everything i possibly could for him to prove that we were in love, that we were perfect for eachother, that we were gonna last forever. but see thats just the problem it was I who did it all, his efforts were few if any. It was like he was a puppet master and i was his puppet. i did everything he wanted at his every beck and call. but for some reason i thought that was love..? its hard letting go of him..but sometimes you have to do whats right. i cant say that i will never take him back.. i cant say that im ever gonna move on..because at this moment i dont feel like i will. Some days are easier than others, sometimes i think to myself why am i sad over someone who doesnt even care that im hurting? why should i be crying over someone who has done this many times to me and doesnt seem to care? why am i put in this position of saddness because he needs to "focus on him"? i guess im just stuck in a rough spot because i want him to be with me so bad and there isnt a damn thing i can do about it. You know one side of me is like fuck him he did me dirty...and the other side of me wants to say i love him he was so good to me. I dont know..this is possible one of the hardest things i have ever had to go thru..and it sucks that its HIM i usually go to when things get rough in my life..and now HE cant even be there...




xoxo even though you no longer want my love garr i will always be there for you if and when you ever need it..

Exposed.

So, this is me...everything i feel and say im gonna write on here everyday for all of you to read. Why? well people are always gonna talk, i mind as well give them something to talk about right?

here is a little sumin sumin about me..how i would describe myself..

Im Nicolle, and im never satisfied.I've always been the nice girl, but this year, I learned you have to go after what you want.Once i open my mouth all bullets come out.I have a lot more patience for others than I have for myself, and I'm much better at bringing out the best in others than in myself. That's just the kind of person I am. I'm the scratchy stuff on the side of the matchbox. But that's fine with me. I don't mind at all. Better to be a first-class matchbox than a second-class match.I don't believe in guilt. I believe in living on impulse. As long as you never intentionally hurt another person and don't judge people in your life,I think you should live completely free.I've come to the understanding, that everyone leaves you at some point, we all use eachother, the whole world is fake, and im okay with that. Sit down and have a conversation with me, let me blow your fucking mind.

I've come to believe people never mean half of what they say and it's best to disregard their words and judge them solely on their actions.