It has been awhile since ive blogged, but i i need to get back into it. So guess what? well its not really a guess everyone knows now but im pregnant! I found out feb 11 and man was it scary. I remember it like it was yesterday, feb 10 i was sitting at school eating wendys (which is now my favvv thing to have) and i just had this feeling i cant really explain, but i just knew. So i went to my car and got a pregnancy test that i had because i had gotten it for a friend, i then went to the bathroom, pee'd and it came positive. I sat there for a few minutes thinking this cant be right, Garrett wanted nothing to do with me and now im having his baby? what the hell was i gonna do? So i ran out crying, left school and on the way home stopped and bought about 3 more packages and took them all. Each one came out positive, every piece of me just didnt want to believe it. How could i, out of all people be having a baby? i was being so safe, at least i thought. Goes to show that just not having sex is the only way to not get pregnant. Anyways, i started texting Garrett, he wouldnt answer, i called and called and called, still nothing. Finally after hours of freaking out he texted me back, i told him the news, at first he didnt believe me, he thought i was lying to just get his attention so i decided to go to Planned Parenthood to prove it was true. The next day i went in, pee'd in a cup and they told me i was positive but it was a light showing so i was very early i just started balling my eyes out i had no clue what was gonna happen. Was Garrett gonna be there for me? What would my family say? How would i finish school? Can i afford this? After all that i called him and let him know the news, he first said some very mean things that i will never repeat, but after awhile it grew on him and he started to accept the fact he was gonna be a father. So now i sit here three weeks from my due date waiting to meet my bundle of joy little baby Conor Garrett Ojala... <3
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